ehem! ehem! ehem!

i'm really confused..

i don't know.. i know i have a crush on this certain guy i met randomly at school, but, for it to last for, i think, at least 7 months now, is it possible? crush lang ba 'to te? or imagination ko lang?

i think it's not a mere crush anymore.. it's love!

wahaha :D sinong niloko ko? me? fall in love again and to a stranger pa? heller!

i think that's not really what i feel. i mean, i think i don't feel something special for him. but if that's the case, why would i always find myself stalking up his profile in facebook, being so giddy when he greeted me on my birthday, and be so speechless when texting with him? uwaaaaaaah!! HINDI KO ALAM!

baka nga gumagana lang ang imagination ko dahil sa kakabasa ng mga romantic novels and wattpad. baka gusto ko lang ma-feel kung paano mainlove kaya heto ako, NAGHANAP. timing naman na may dumating na taong twice ko lng nkita in person at naging crush ko at first sight kaya i grabbed the chance and made him my inspiration. pero parang sumosobra naman yata ako eh. hanggang crush nga lang diba? pero bakit saan-saan na napupunta? nagtatanong na ako kung anong ugali niya, kung may lovelife ba siya, at kung ano ang buhay niya nung high school... ANO BA ITETCH?!!

pero hindi eh.. feeling ko tlga hnd un ganon.. feeling ko nga hindi ko siya crush.. sinasabi ko lang un para may lovelife kuno ako,, kawawa naman ako.. haaiisst.. imagination nga naman! saan-saan tlga napupunta!

pinagtataka ko lang ay.. bakit.. bakit kahit twice,, or i mean,, two days ko lang siyang nakita sa tanang buhay ko (YET), ay ganito na ang epekto niya sa akin?! why do i feel like i like him more when i don't see him in person than seeing him in the flesh?! siguro, kailangan ko lang siyang makita ulit para mawala na 'tong kalokohan na iniisip ko! siguro nga nuh? pra mging less and less and less tapos ZERO nah! yehey! TAPOS NAH! sana gnon lang un kadali nuh? try daw! :D


pero hindi pa rin nawawala sa isip ko na baka hindi naman tlga siya ang gusto ko. kundi ang idea na may tao akong gusto? you know what i mean? uwaaaaah~! feeling ko kasi ginagamit ko lang siya para bigyan ng pangalan ang feelings ko :( kumbaga, para may kung saan lng akong pambuhos ng feelings para hindi siya mabigat sa loob. haaaaisst!! TARUNG BA! UNSA BA TLGA? (kebraw ia man!)

Paasa ka dre! :"(

Of all the kinds of men created in this world the worst is those that are good in saying things but easily forgets it the next day.. :"(

'Yung tipong pa-fall na lalake! kainis lng eh! :( kahapon lang sinasabihan ka ng sweet things tapos ngayon pinag-uusapan kung ano na ang gagawin niya para sa ibang girl...

Haaaaaay naku!! lagi na lang bang ganito? :"(

Sabi ko diba dati, sawa na ako sa ganito... 'yung tipong naniniwala agad ako sa sinasabi nila.. peroooo.. akala ko kasi totoo na eh.. :( akala ko totoo na ang sinasabi.. :( hindi naman pala.. nauto na naman ako.. naloko.. pero pano ba kasi malaman kung totoo na o hinde ang sinasabi?

Bakit kasi kayo ganyan? Anong tingin niyo sa amin? Past time? DoTA na pwd niyong paglaruan at pagpraktisan? nabuengs na dre! FYI, HINDI KAME LARUAN!!!!! >____<

ENVY and LONGING :'(

Selos ako sa mga friends kong may lovelife.. taz sa akin pa nila kino-confide feelings nila.. :’( ouch nmn un dre! hnd nmn sa bitter ako o anuman.. i just wanna know what it feels like to be in love once again.. feeling it flow throughout your body.. ung feeling na may pinapahalagahan ka.. yung tipong ayaw mo syang mawala sau.. gusto ko ng gnon eh.. kahit hnd na niya i-reciprocate feelings ko.. kahit one-sided lng okay na skin.. masakit man o desperada man pakinggan… i just wanna know what love is all over again before it hit me off-guard the next time i fall.. :’(

pwd bang ako rin? pwd ako rin naman sana meron? :’(

pero siguro it’s not yet time for me to feel it.. maybe i need to set my priorities first.. ia harta ia man tamen del grade six pati high school! :D

pero hindi eh.. i just feel so.. empty.. like there’s something missing within me.. like a hole waiting to be filled up with something.. or someone.. epekto kasi ‘to ng pagbabasa ng maraming romantic novels eh! dagdagan pa ng mga stories sa wattpad! ian tuloy, i made myself long for love.. haaaaiiisst.. anubeyen!! kalerki oi! i find myself in love with the idea of love! haynaku! kalerki jud oi! gustung-gusto mainlove tapos kung masaktan nmn hihilingin na sana hindi na lang nagmamahal! na unsa naman ku oi? nabuengs nah!

humahaba nmn ‘to dre! plano ko mag-stat lng sa facebook bakit prang nobela na ang paroroonan nito? WHAT MAN? anu-ano nlng pumapasok sa isip ko!! >___<

GUSTO KO LANG NAMAN MA-INLOVE ULIT EH. >o< PERIOD.

Crush ko siya! wahaha :D

hmm.. it all started like this..

it was Ash Wednesday when i first saw him. he was a just a friend of my friends who happens to be on a vacation from school because of having no class for 2 or 3 days in particular i guess.. i don't know..(-.-)?

we were in the school cafeteria that time when my friend told us that a friend of hers (who happens to be her HS classmate and Alumnus of the university HS) came home and visited the school... and while we're talking, in came the guy of the talk.. i haven't felt it yet at first.. for all i saw was his back! (sexy back! :D)

but when that moment came, when i turned around and had a good look at him, shootness dude! he, too, was looking at our group! who wouldn't when obviously a group of girls are talking about you and a member of that group happens to be your friend! wahaha :D i was mesmerized by his eyes.. i really love those pair! *o* it glistens like shining shimmering splendid!!! for a fraction of a second i was captivated by those oh-so-wonderful pair! *o* but of course i looked away! wahaha :D masama baya tumitig sa tao ng matagal! it's rude to look, i mean, STARE at people! wahaha :D but i love that moment! that was when i realized "crush ko siya! wahaha :D"

Srsly? I'm falling deep!

I never knew who he was.

never even seen his face before nor hear his name.

never even knew he actually exists!

but, all these things seem to change. for the second our eyes met, he controlled my feelings without him knowing what he's capable of. just for that split second when my gaze met his, i was... i don't know.. i can't explain it. the feeling.. maybe it was just because i'm looking for something to be inspired of or maybe i was just overreacting. but.. no.. I DON'T KNOW! it was just a mere crush, for God's sake! how come i ended up searching for his profile in facebook, looking at his pictures and trying to get some facts about him! GOSH! what's happening to me? i seem to be a Godd*mn STALKER.... errrr.. i don't like this feeling!!! >____< and i can't help myself but cuss and cuss and cuss!!! errrr...

he doesn't even know me!! guess, he doesn't even know i actually exist!

Sometimes, true-to-life love stories aren't fairy tales.

It starts when the princess meets her partner and ends with a happily ever after.

When my love one looks at me in my eyes, I think I’m a princess and he’s my knight in shining armor.

I feel safe whenever he’s with me… but, just like fairy tales, there’ll always be a time that a witch would come and ruin the perfect life of the princess.

The princess’ knight in shining armor fell in love with the witch.

Now, what will happen to the princess? She was left stranded with miseries seeing the sparkling eyes of the knight, which used to be hers, now glistens for the witch…

Now, I can say, true-to-life love stories seem to be fairy tales, but not the same…