trapped...

          "i'm trying to do what i can. trying to like doing what you want me to do. but you having expectations makes me feel like a bird trapped in a gilded cage. limited. trapped. can't spread my wings, soar, and enjoy the sky up above.

          "expectations make me feel pressured and pressure is one of the things i don't want to be submitted to. not submitting to it therefore ended with me failing. not meeting what you expect.

          "i know you just care about me and my future. you want to guide me to be a better person. but please... don't make me feel trapped."

^ those are the words i wanted to tell HER

Eating Chocolates ^o^

Would it always be like this? 

I'm fully aware that my tooth will ache whenever i eat too much chocolates... but... i just can't help having a bite and then it will eventually lead to me eating the entire one.

Why do i still eat even though i already know in the first place that it would only give me pain? Well, besides pain it would also give me pleasure. Pleasure through satisfaction. Pleasure because the need in me was satisfied. Maybe that's the reason for it all. It's not always the negative thing that counts. There would always be the other side of the coin.

Pleasure over pain. Maybe, the pain i'd feel is worth less than the happiness that comes with it :) that even though i would only hurt myself in doing it, i'd still continue eating those chocolates. Pain is next to nothing when you are doing something that makes you happy. Happiness through pain. Masochistic though it may sound, but that's just how i feel :)

and i'm not talking about chocolates ^_____^

if you know what i mean.. :P